OLLIE SCHMINKEY

poet. musician. artist.

AUTHOR OF DEAD DAD JOKES AND WHERE I DRY THE FLOWERS

Newsletter #3: Midwest Poetry Mash-Up and The Ghosts of Tournaments Past

Hi everyone, and a happy National Poetry Month! 


Me and my friends Zach and Tanesha at last year’s Midwest Poetry Mash-Up! We run the tournament together, and they are truly the best.

WHAT’S GOING ON:

We won a grant!! I feel so humbled and honored to have this support; it is a huge step towards sustainability in this passion project I love with my whole heart.

Midwest Poetry Mash-Up: April 25th-26th at Open Book in Minneapolis, MN

I am indescribably excited for the 3rd year of Midwest Poetry Mash-Up! In just a few weeks, 10 teams of incredibly skilled poets will go head to head in an epic battle of poetic prowess. At the end, one team will be crowned the winner and awarded a cash prize!  Being in community is one of my favorite things ever, and this tournament is literally so fun. If you’re nearby, grab your tickets now to see some of the best poets in the country (and England and Canada)!

Tickets are on sale now, and you can grab yours here: https://midwestpoetrymashup.square.site/

If you’re interested in competing next year, you can get on the Mash-Up email list by sending an email to midwestpoetrymashup@gmail.com

If you want to slide into a bout for free, we’re still looking for a few volunteers to run concessions, and you can email us at midwestpoetrymashup@gmail.com to volunteer!

PROMPT

Here’s a prompt, if you feel like writing!

POEM

Here’s a brand new poem, about how much I love the woods, and about how much I want to protect our remaining natural spaces.

PETE

My darling boy, applying the “work smarter, not harder” adage to the treadmill.

OLLIE’S THOUGHT CORNER

think, think, think, think….

All of the scary shit in the world is feeling very present to me right now, but I’d like to take this month’s newsletter to talk about the joys of community and to reminisce a little bit about some of my favorite memories from the Ghosts of Poetry Tournaments Past.

I used to compete at a lot of poetry tournaments (hopefully this is not too much of a brag). In college, I would compete in the collegiate slam poetry circuit (CUPSI) as well as the adult circuit (NPS) and often throw in a regional tournament like Rustbelt as well-- at least 2-3 tournaments per year. As you may or may not know, the national slam scene has faced decimation after decimation, and there are now way less performance opportunities than there used to be. CUPSI used to gather 70+ college teams from across the nation, and now there is literally no collegiate circuit (we fought so hard to keep it, folks, but the parent organization just didn’t want to do the work to bring it back after the initial years of the pandemic).  Side note: if you know of any college students who want to compete or create/resurrect a slam, send them my way! Filling in some of the need left by CUPSI was one of my main goals in creating Midwest Poetry Mash-Up, and I feel really passionately about college students having access to slam.

So back to the stories I promised: 

Enter: me, an 18-year-old goth kid who grew up in the country, driving an hour and a half south to live in a city that felt like an entirely new world. I was super traumatized, newly out as both queer and trans, an opinionated Aquarius, and constantly wearing cargo shorts with duck boots no matter the season. If you haven’t guessed it yet, slam poetry was the perfect space for me. 

I couldn’t afford therapy, and honestly didn’t have a good enough understanding of what had happened to me in high school to even have the idea that I needed therapy (doesn’t everyone have debilitating breakdowns, panic attacks, and feel safest behind the coats in the front hall closet with the door closed?) So slam was what I had! Normally, whenever I’m teaching a class, I’m very clear that I don’t believe that poetry is a substitute for therapy-- therapy involves a trained professional that can be your emotional guide, and poetry is just you. But that doesn’t mean that poetry isn’t one hell of a processing tool-- and couple that with a supportive community of people with higher-than-average emotional intelligence? Bingo: sad weird kid is still sad and weird, but with a support network! Slam was exactly what I needed, and it helped me feel connected and valued when I was, quite frankly, drowning.


Trying to describe the energy in these slams and tournaments to someone who hasn’t experienced it feels almost impossible. Imagine, a group of fifty, a hundred, five hundred people, truly listening to you. And not just with their ears, but with their entire bodies-- being able to hear and feel their support, their snaps and murmurs, their inhales of fellow-feeling, their engagement, their witness of you. That feeling of being so thoroughly and blessedly seen, for all of the parts of myself that I was taught by society should never be seen-- well, it healed something in me that desperately needed tending.

I don’t have a single memory of any specific slam where we won (although we did, for the record, ahem), but what I remember most are the after parties, being in community (and sometimes in bed-- ha!) with other poets. If you’ve got the idea of a poet as a quiet mumbler who barely whispers into the bookstore podium mic, get that idea right on out of your head. Slam poets are (scientifically) the sexiest people on the planet, and the giant post-bout parties we had reflected that, passing a bottle and staying up routinely until four or five a.m. In fact, some poets were so rambunctious that several hotels straight-up kicked all of the poets out (this happened more than one year). Of course, there was conflict and bullshit and boredom, but mostly, to me, these post-bout festivities felt like a giant super cool adult summer camp, where everyone there had the same niche interest as you and wanted to hear you talk at length about your mean dad (the sixth love language). We would leave the last bout of the night, after several hours of performing and listening to poetry, and then form unofficial circles on the lawn or in someone’s hotel room and perform more poems. These cyphers weren’t scored, they weren’t competitive-- they were for the love of the art form, for the muchness that we were. The chosen poet would stand in the middle of the circle and perform 360 degrees, and then close their eyes and spin, pointing to the next poet randomly a-la-spin the bottle. Some of my favorite performances are memories from these cyphers, where the energy fucking crackled through the night air, and we were free

If I could copy and paste those experiences directly into your brain, I would. My wish for all of you is that, at some point in your life, you get to feel so thoroughly seen by a group of people (and maybe take a cutie home afterwards for a smooch or two). 

Oh, and get your tickets for the Mash-Up! Can’t wait to make this magic with you for the third year in a row!

Love,

Ollie

Newsletter #2

Welcome to the second newsletter! If you missed my first one, you can check it out here: https://www.ollieschminkey.com/newsletter-1

Me out enjoying nature with my new flat chest!

I’ve been spending the last month and a half healing from top surgery, which has come with many emotions-- if you’d like to hear more about my experience, I’ve included some thoughts/feelings/ramblings at the end of this newsletter.

WHAT’S NEW
30 Poems in 30 Days

April is National Poetry Month! In this class, you’ll get 30 tailored prompts and write a poem every day of April. This class is a great fit for you if you want to write more (whether for pleasure or for a project), connect with community, and push yourself to explore new types of poems. You’ll also get hands-on support from me as your instructor, and some poetry feedback as well. All of my classes are designed for both experienced and beginner poets, and my classes have a very fun and encouraging atmosphere!

You can register here: https://writers.com/course/30-poems-in-30-days

Midwest Poetry Mash-Up Tickets are Now Live!
April 25th-26th at Open Book in Minneapolis, MN

Mark your calendars! 

Three years ago, I created a slam poetry tournament after the closure of CUPSI (the national collegiate slam poetry tournament that helped me and so many others to start their careers and find community). I really wanted any college students that wanted to do slam to have a tournament to go to, and so poets across the country could still access some of those networking and community opportunities that national competitions used to offer poets. 

Now, several years later, I’ve got several friends helping me organize (thanks, Zach and Tanesha!), and Midwest Poetry Mash-Up has grown into an (inter)national tournament with both college and adult competitors. Although I’m probably biased, I think this year might be the best one yet!

Tickets are now LIVE for the third Midwest Poetry Mash-Up! We're going BIG this year: larger venue, twice as many teams than we had in 2023, more opportunities for you to cheer on your favorite poets (or decide their fate should you be lucky enough to judge), and CHEAPER tickets than ever before! Get yours today so you can watch poets from all over the country compete for fame, glory, and a cash-prize over two days and 5 jam-packed bouts! Single event tickets* and full weekend passes available at https://tinyurl.com/mashup25tix

*Please note that tickets are divided into individual bouts (events) and make sure you select a ticket for the specific bout(s) you want to attend. If you want to attend all events, purchase a full weekend pass. Tickets are non-transferable and non-refundable. 

Questions? Email midwestpoetrymashup@gmail.com

This activity is made possible by the voters of Minnesota through a grant from the Metropolitan Regional Arts Council, thanks to a legislative appropriation from the arts and cultural heritage fund.

PROMPT

Here’s a prompt, if you feel like writing!

POEM

I’m working on poetry book about top surgery! Here’s an exclusive sneak peek into the manuscript, as a thank-you for subscribing to my newsletter. I watched a bunch of stuff about trans people while I was healing, including Will & Harper, which absolutely made me ball my eyes out (and totally changed how I think about Will Farrell).

PETE

Pete has been incredibly helpful to my healing process— providing lots and lots of cuddles!

OLLIE’S THOUGHT CORNER

This past month has brought with it some extremes. I got top surgery just a few days after Trump signed those executive orders, some of which came with huge anti-trans sentiment and consequences. Not to mention that Iowa just removed gender identity from its civil rights code, making it the first state to stop protecting a group of previously protected people. There is so much hatred coming for trans people right now, and it’s really overwhelming and scary. 

As a non-binary person, I’m kind of used to transphobia showing up for me personally largely as erasure; which, in my life, has mostly been annoying and disheartening (and resulting in a years-long depression in college). This isn’t to say that erasure isn’t harmful; it’s definitely given me a mental health crisis or two. It’s just to say, that now in my 30s, I feel like I’ve come to terms with it in my own life. Cashiers will always “ma’am” me, internet strangers will always send me weird and mean messages, but I have a really solid community of people who see me for who I am, and who honor and celebrate me because of it. Besides, when I came out, I never would have guessed that non-binary people would be on TV, in movies, and be famous comedians with Netflix specials (shoutout Mae Martin). So, in that sense, despite all of the bullshit, I still feel incredibly lucky; public acknowledgement of non-binary people has already exceeded my wildest expectations. But the flip side of visibility is that now, people can see me, and that’s been feeling like a scary thing lately.

Post top surgery, it feels very strange to be marked now as physically “trans” during a particularly blatant anti-trans political landscape. For better or for worse, I’m used to erasure and invisibility providing a sense of safety for me, and now that safety feels tenuous. For the first time in my life, being transgender is on my medical records (I kept it off for the last decade out of fear of medical discrimination, but I needed to be officially diagnosed with gender dysphoria in order for insurance to cover my surgery). I personally don’t think any sort of medical transition is necessary for someone to be transgender, and I waited ten years (10 years!!) after coming out as trans to decide that top surgery was the right choice for me. But now, anyone could look at me and “tell.” Someone could know I’m trans without me telling them I’m trans, and this is new for me. (Not that I was exactly hiding it; I think any queer person would know instantly anyway, boobs or not).  I know that this public visibility is the reality for a lot of trans people, and has been for a long time, and I look forward to learning from them how to be more resilient when it comes to this. But I don’t think I was prepared to have new feelings about my gender a decade after coming out, and it’s taking me a moment to sift through them. 

While healing from top surgery has been more emotionally and physically difficult in some ways than I expected, the euphoria I feel with my new body is immense. The amount of community support I’ve felt is incredible. I’ve gotten to eat dozens of amazing dishes brought to me by friends and loved ones (who have turned out to be awesome cooks). I’ve felt so loved and cherished during this vulnerable time in my life, and I feel deeply grateful. 

There’s no tidy sum-up here, except perhaps to say that I’m moving into this next part of my life trying to honor each emotion, “good” or “bad.” Everything about life is nuanced, and I’m capable of holding joy and fear in the same moment. The changes I’ve made to my body represent both the fear of being seen, and the joy of being seen. And as I end this bit of rambling, I am feeling overwhelmed with the joy-- what a gift to be here, with you. 

Love,

Ollie